Single parenting is hard and sometimes downright exhausting. There are never enough hours in the day to spend with my children or to keep up with life. From the time I wake up in the morning until I go to bed at night, I am always on the go. There are days when the responsibility make your knees buckle in prayer that everything will work out in the end. You feel like you’re being pulled in a million directions at once. My children are my first priority– their needs, their wants, their everything. I bust my buns at a job that I thankfully love to provide for them.
People will always share horror stories about single parenting and scare you into thinking you cannot do it. Single parenting, albeit hard, has shown me things about myself and my children that I never noticed before. My divorce has been one of the most liberating experiences to date. I am a much stronger woman and mother than I ever anticipated I could be.
There are days when I get down on myself. I feel like a failure because I cannot always be with my children, but at the end of the day, I am there for them when they need me most. I have felt that pang of guilt for working second shift to provide for them or pulling extra shifts to give them the things I never had growing up. I have also felt the satisfaction of being able to provide for them financially. To keep the roof over their heads, food in their bellies and clothes on their backs. I have felt the stress of financial burdens, but this is what drives me and motivates me to continue doing what I’m doing– to bust my ass to better our life.
Despite all the struggles we face as a family of three, I am thankful and blessed. While it’s hard at times, I also reap the benefits of hearing them tell me that they love me, seeing the smiles on their faces when I pick them up from school and all of the hugs/kisses a mother could hope for. I don’t have to share these moments with anyone else. They are the reasons I never give up or slow down. Knowing things will not always be this way, makes all of the sacrifices worth while.